Katsue

While I may be gone,my spirit is soaring I am free from pain and with the goddess All my ancestors stand beside me now I have learned from my past mistakes As I walk to the summerland I will remember all the faces And the love of the people I've met I shall know them but not let them hinder my growth To learn and grow is my path

This feeling is hopeless I need to be around It tears me apart knowing this But I can't leave It's ruining me This ideal,this thought Never answering no reply The constant burn I feel like this will never leave The memories bubbling up Those eyes haunt me With spirit cold Body like fire I often have to search myself To Remember not tonight But often I wish to divulge

It might be easy for others to accept But I always insist on doing this hard These visions are not simple My mind not clear Is this past or present Lines now bleed Confusion sets in Heart and mind at ill-ease Reality or a dream As I nod off Dreaming of the sickeningly sweet So do not wake, wander there Maybe then I can find the difference If I stay I will lose myself If I go I have to control So I lie and wait on the beaches of green grass Hoping life will change The clouds lift, eyes open For now this memory will haunt And remain just that

Sometimes I wonder Why here, why now When things start to calm down This anyways happens I let my guard down Then this happens I don't know why or how But everything seems to follow me From one place to another Once I get vulnerable, love I feel like the most hopeless thing Flitting here and there I wish and hope But nothing changes Here I am still the same as before Hopelessly in love

I pad along the grass, Long legs barely quivering the tops of the savannah My eyes burning in the failing sunlight My sacred tree This vaguely familiar acacia with its thorns worn away from panthers A swift jump and I was 7 feet up the tree. This is my home I thought, Glancing out and looking amongst the stars, Being able to name almost every one of them in native tongue A sigh escapes and I realize there is someone there My partner, whome I didn’t enjoy, had stalked me there I should’ve known, yet I didn’t mind His mind was searching for mine He was just the same as me, Another sigh and his grey eyes shone up at